PICTURE OF THE SOUL
BY IRINA ZAIKINA | 01 DECEMBER 2018
Each of us once came to a standstill. There are many symptoms: the head is about to explode, like a baby pop, or a hazy mist hangs around us. This is how the interconnection of our consciousness with imaginative thinking manifests itself. But what to do if you want to get rid of bad thoughts and experiences? Where do you look for that “guiding star”?
Trying to get rid of these feelings, I drowned them out in various ways. I will not say that these were effective methods, rather, feelings turned into a huge snowball, from which it was impossible to escape.
No wonder M. Lermontov said: “Everyone is ready to share the fun: no one wants to share the sadness”. So, I did not want this. It was necessary to close, leave, “renounce” reality.
But this is not an option, so I came up with my method. I wanted to draw, to take paint and «glow» something. I splashed out on paper accumulated anger, loneliness, lostness. It was as if I was exiting from inside a parasitic creature that was poisoning my life, and, you know, it became easier for me. It was necessary only to glance «within myself» and with the help of images to get to the center of anxiety and worries.
Do not be afraid to «quarrel with the paper.» Draw, make holes in it, scribble. The main thing is to draw patterns of your soul. And let it be a coal-black sky or a funnel, dragging you somewhere; fluffy and airy clouds or bright flowers. Yes whatever! And even if the soul is empty, reach out, look for what you would like to feel or see.
Every emotion has a side effect or contradiction. But this is where all the beauty lives. After all, we ourselves can help ourselves to understand our own feelings!
And sometimes for this we need only to paint …